who knew a hallmark holiday could be such a harsh reminder of loss? i guess we all know that there will come a day when we won't have a living parent to celebrate on days like today. but i never would have guessed that it would be this year.
my dad collapsed from a heart attack eleven months ago tomorrow...and yet it seems like yesterday in many respects. some days it doesn't even seem real, despite the very real sorrow that i feel to my core.
i went for a long hike today in my favorite place in the santa cruz mountains - fall creek. i hugged a giant redwood and walked beside moving water...water that helps me feel connected, brings me confidence, and gives me hope.
as i was nearing the ridge i came across this orchid. the unfurling stem reminded me that in spite of everything, we grow. even through sorrow, we grow... i miss you every day, dad.
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